Happy Birthday Evan

 

I can hardly believe my baby is one today. I cannot express the joy he is to our family. As a mother I felt very worn after one boy and then three girls in a row. I loved my children but I could not think about having another one. My life felt difficult enough yet I could never come to grips with being done having children. After much soul searching I knew that my family was not yet complete. When we found out we were having another boy after so long we were so excited and I knew that he was the reason I never felt finished. Ever since he entered our lives we have enjoyed him so much. I am such a different mother now at 34 then I was at 22 (sorry Spencer). It is not the age that has done it, it is what has happened between those years. I have felt over the years the Lord gently molding my character to try to be a mother my children can admire. When I see what wonderful mothers my friends are I am reminded how much I still need to learn, but how moldable I have become. I love you Evan. I love your darling laugh. I love how much you like to make your brother and sisters laugh, you are such a clown. I love how quickly you settle down when I sing to you. I love your fake cry when you want me to notice you. I love your smell, your breath, your kisses.
Mommy